january 23, 2025
first and foremost i wanna give a shout out to my bestie caitlin, happy birthday pookamaniac.
in other news. holy fuck. guys i feel like it's so over but simultaneously i know i must remain hopeful. but that's so hard to do, you know? for the readers who are unfamiliar with my current situation, i live with my family, and they are all right wing to varying degrees. but those degrees get pretty extreme. being queer myself, i am beginning to feel more and more stressed/physically unsafe at my house and home. while i do have places i can migrate to (as well as locations i can stay for temporary asylum), it will take substantial time in order to make a big move happen.
america has been declining for a long time now. this is different, though. we have officially found ourselves in a big tech oligarchy, with the wealthiest and most powerful man in that group sieg heiling twice on national television and people actively defending him. "oh he's just autistic isn't he" i don't know a single autistic person who is unaware of what the roman salute signifies in the year of our lord. we have lost right to equal employment opportunity which we have held since 1965. the wealthiest people are once again getting a tax cut while the poorest are getting their taxes increased. left-wing content and criticism of the right is being blacklisted on social medias all while propaganda is being fed to us about how it's "the illegals" or "the gays and trannies" (i can say it i'm one of them) or whatever minority group most effectively serves their message. and i can't even voice that frustration to someone like my mother, because she herself has fallen to the rhetoric of the right wing.
i'm so good and fine and normal right now though. i'm so chilling.
genuinely it's not like there have only been bad things happening (at least for me specifically). started doing guitar lessons, and that's pretty fun. i think i'm making pretty good progress. also might be working more in the future potentially. that's it actually i think. i'm also stressing about personal life issues. gah.
see i usually have a prophecy for the year that combines my feelings about happenings at the end of december and into january. my prophecy was "peace and love on planet earth". that was the phrase most prominent in my mind. i've been thinking about how to interpret this for a while, and i think an aspect of this is comfort and allyship in unconventional and unexpected ways. i have been seeing this frequently in my own life and in others. i'm hoping this manifests in greater ways, and i hope that it manifests for whoever is reading this. and also whoever isn't reading this. i must hope that things will be okay. i have to have hope.
